Love & Support

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Julie,

I am writing this letter to you, I am so in LOVE with you, your voice always gets me through the toughest battles I have in my head. The days you give me strength, when I am so lost in my depression and you open yourself up ‘For Better Or Worse’.

Anyone who suffers from Depression, can agree that we fight crazy battles in our head all day every day. Most days unable to connect with the “normal” world around us, let alone make time for our significant others. The bad days seem to be present more than the good days.

We beat ourselves up and most of the time we make it more about our personal feelings and hardly realise what we are doing to people around us. How did I get lucky enough to find someone who loves me this way? Who makes sure that I make it through the day and makes sure I go to bed knowing I am safe and loved? I’ll never be worthy of you, if life had a plan for me, that plan is YOU!

Every single day it’s about me. How is my HUSBAND feeling? What can I do to help my HUSBAND? How in the world you have dealt with that this past year, I’ll never know? What I can tell you is that I am so GRATEFUL. I am beyond blessed with a WIFE so understanding and patient. Most of all, I have been blessed with a WIFE so SELFLESS. I know that as exhausting as handling a mental illness is for me, it is equally exhausting for you.

I want to thank you for loving me and supporting me. To my WIFE, the woman who helps me get through every day, I hope this brings you warmth and fills your heart with the feeling of being loved and appreciated.

One day, good days will come more often than the bad days and I can’t wait for that. I love you, all of you. 

Forever

Bruce



Location: Yorkshire

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